men and marriage

so 3 people from HS got married this weekend.  and it just boggles my mind to know that there are men who want to get married.  i mean, my best friend’s wedding a few weekends ago, that was an absolute given they were going to get married, and he’s just that type of guy. 

but the rest of the guys i know, when not around their GFs, talk shitty about women in general, about their girlfriends, about how they’ll never get married and hate that kind of shit, and i just don’t get how marriage ever happens.  idk if i can put this into words to explain what i’m trying to convey.  maybe it’s tv or the media inundating us with messages about how men need their ‘man caves’ and cheat and need time with the boys to get away from their wives and kids.  or like i said, maybe it’s the words and actions of my guy friends. 

maybe it’s just b/c i’ve been single for so long.  and even my ‘serious’ relationship in college never ever ever touched on any adult subjects like marriage or the future.  or maybe it’s that my parents HATE each other and i can’t even imagine a time when they were happy and why my dad wanted to marry my mom (and vice versa). 

maybe it’s that i’ve been one to never think of marriage.  i really don’t care if i get married or not; it is important to me to find someone who is the love of my life, but i don’t need the marriage or title or certificate to prove my love/commitment.

i once asked my guy friend what it’s like from a guy’s perspective to be in love.  i can’t remember the details of his response, but it was shocking.  like, he was a mushy gushy blob talking about how/why he loved his GF, and how he feels as a man in love (funny enough, they broke up after two years).

sigh, idk.  this is why i’m an engineer and not a writer; i can’t put things eloquently or explain them unless it’s with numbers and science.  dude input needed:  any guys who follow this blog care to answer about your views on marriage and love?